Where I'm going to be spending most of my time during 2016! I leave late February. I wonder if it'll be before or after my birthday.. I hope after.
Wassup Mao how's it goin'
I am, of course, only blogging because I have a looming assignment. Seems to be the only time I have a few minutes to spare for my blog these days.. Not that I'm being super productive in the meantime, watching Big Bang Theory reruns while I eat and Korean variety TV show Running Man whenever I can. (I'm not even going out to eat because of how poor I am right now. No joke.)
Perhaps I've simply run out of words.
At this current point in time (sitting sideways on my couch at 10:15PM, Sydney time [I never remember the EST time zone crap]), I'm feeling sort of apathetic about my career in journalism. Or journalism in general. I usually write it off as just my mood, or that I'm tired. The 24 hour news cycle gets tiring - de Botton is right; everything and absolutely nothing is happening, all the time. I need to get away from everything I think I should be doing and remember what it is I really enjoy. And do it.
I've been praying a little more lately. Funnily enough, God is the only thing I never get tired of thinking about or talking to. My conception of Him is still vastly underdeveloped - I really do wonder sometimes if I may be simply talking to myself, that I am perhaps deluding myself in creating this 'Being' who brings me psychological comfort because I feel no guilt in releasing my feelings and thoughts upon him. But only a very small part of me thinks that. Most of me thinks He's real, feels Him there.
People. I need people, my people. My family. I have a little fantasy of matching pajamas with my loved ones surrounding me in a huge bed that fits all of us and falling asleep next to each other. (forreal tho. i need one of those huge beds intended for orgies but just throw a huge slumber party instead)