But nothing hurts more than being called a bad daughter, and even more shamefully, a bad sister.
I'm sorry. I love you. 很多，很多，很多。
It's like for some fucked up reason I can never tell my family how I feel about them but when it comes to my friends, it's just so easy, so natural. But when it's my family I just choke the fuck up. I feel uncomfortable. And it's not like I love my friends more or less than my family, I just love them in different ways - obviously, because I have a different relationship with them. But I guess that makes all the difference.
It's morbidly ironic how I've become the opposite of what I want - who I want to be.
I say I'll change but it never seems to happen. But if I can resist junk food for over a week now, I can fucking do this shit. No weaknesses, no excuses, just me. Adopt the dedication that was literally glaringly obvious in Zyzz's body.