I want that. :) I want to pop out fifty kids when I'm older (LOL fuck no. If I could choose, I wouldn't have babies at all. = o =) and I want to have a chaotic family that's always screaming and yelling at each other, but backs each other up when they need it :D, that's never cold or empty to come home to, that's always warm and energetic and filled with the presence of each individual person who inhabits the house.
I don't have any - okay, exaggeration. I don't have many moments like that. I wish I did, though, cousins my own age that I could talk with and joke around and have over for dinner like Lynn, or - or Sandy, even. She has 3 sisters that she doesn't always like but always, always loves and she's in love with her family and you can really tell that that's all she needs for affection.
I suppose now that my cousin's here in Australia things have gotten a lot better - whenever they come over the tiny tiny apartment's just that much more talkative and my mum talks and talks and talks and half the time I feel very self absorbed by interneting like I usually do LOLOL, but ..yeah. Just a random post about how I'm realising how much I should value people that will always be there, and how much I never notice that.
As a kid I never thought about these things.. I know I'm always a little slow, always a little too immature, always lagging behind my friends :(. No doubt they've all realised this ages and ages ago and here I am making a post about this 2 years late HAHAHA.
Life is pretty neat. ♥